Chapter 1

I was only nineteen and five things would change my life as I knew it:

1. I was a nobody and school and barely weighed one hundred fifty pounds. Second, I had zero friends so that set me up as a target for any asshole in school who enjoyed harassing weak students. I joined a health and soon became infatuated with lifting weights and getting as big as possible.

2. My father had died early in my life and left no male figure to guide me. I never realized how much of a disadvantage that was until I was older.

3. There was an elderly couple that lived next store to me and the husband passed away. At that point my mother informed me that Mrs. Gardner needed help and that I would help look after her. I cut her grass, went to the grocery for her among many other things. They say God doesn’t watch you, but I have to disagree with that.

4. I had gone reluctantly to a party at Haley Mill’s home and started what would be a decades long feud. At the party, Haley’s boyfriend pushed her down and split her head open. I got involved and choke him out. In addition to training with weights I was learning Muy Thai and Krav Maga as self-defense. The police were called but they learned the truth.

5. But my biggest problem was my mother. She was a very beautiful woman with an amazing figure. I began looking at her in a sexual manner. My mother was extremely young and very lovable.

The police sorted everything out and even gave me a ride home for the trouble. My mom freaked out when she saw me get out of a police car and came running out of the house. The police officer explained what had happened and told her I behaved admirably for someone put in the situation I was in.

The following Monday at school, I was the talk of the campus. I had saved Haley and choked out the big bad football player. Haley came over and sat with me during lunch showing me the gash on the back of her head again.

For some reason, I had a bad feeling that what had happened at Haley’s house that night was not over. I could see the looks I was getting from the football players both in and out of the classroom. I guess they were circling the wagons trying to protect one of their own.

I did another cycle of steroids and killed myself in the gym getting to two hundred twenty pounds. Danny then suggested I change my routine to low weight and high repetitions. This would cause me to lose some weight initially but give me much more definition. Since I had been with Danny, he had never steered me wrong, so I started the new routine. I also cut back on the calories I was eating a bit.

Within several weeks, it was easy to see what he was talking about. I was off steroids, and I had dropped close to ten pounds. But the definition in my arms, legs and upper body started to take shape. After two more weeks, I was down twenty pounds but as gym members would say, I was ripped. You could see the veins in my upper arms and my stomach was beginning to get ripples in it.

I turned nineteen years old on a Friday with little fanfare. My mom bought a small cake and some ice cream, and we ate together that night. She bought me several pairs of jeans and two shirts because most of my clothes were too small. I was officially a man now, but I did not feel one bit different.

We were approaching the Christmas holidays, and everyone was looking forward to the extended vacation. We were in our last two weeks of school before vacation when I was approached in the hallway by Haley Mills.

“Hey Chris, are you by any chance going to the Christmas dance?” she asked.

“No, I don’t do dances.” I replied, laughing.

“Want to go with me?” Haley asked.

“Oh geez ... I don’t know Haley. Last time we were together it didn’t end well. I’m still getting looks from the football team.” I answered.

“Please...” she asked, smiling at me.

“Ok, I guess we can go together.” I answered.

She quickly hugged me then began to make plans for the dance. She seemed excited and promised to call me at home later tonight. She was surprised to find out I did not have a cell phone. I just thought for my purposes it was not worth the money. I was either at school, home or the gym. It was not hard to find me.

That evening I told my mom about the dance, and she seemed extremely happy that I had accepted Haley’s invitation. My mom told me I could use her car that night and promised to get it cleaned. I had only driven my mom’s vehicle once when I took the driving test many years ago. The gym and market were close to the house and the school bus picked me up at the corner.

As promised Haley called me that night and we spoke for close to an hour on the phone. She did most of the talking and explained her entire relationship with Darren, not that I really wanted to know.

After talking to Haley, I went into the living room and join my mother on the sofa. She was watching a movie on television, so I sat down and started watching it as well. Around nine o’clock, the movie went off and my mother asked if I wanted to watch anything else. I told her no and she turned off the tv.

“Was that Haley on the phone a while ago?” she asked.

“Yes, it was.” I answered, looking over at her.

What I did not notice until now was my mother was wearing an oversized white t-shirt on with just panties underneath. Since my mother had been going to the gym, she had lost SEVERAL pounds and was turning a lot of heads in the gym, including mine. I always felt bad afterwards when I thought about my mother in a sexual way but, here she was exposing most of her legs to me. She was turned slightly sideways on the sofa facing me. She happened to look out the front window for several seconds which gave me an opportunity to look between her legs. She had on a pair of white lace panties with only the crotch visible. As my mom turned her head, I quickly looked away. Several minutes later, I made an excuse about being tired and went to my room.

On that Monday, my mother went out and got two large seafood platters which was my favorite meal. We ate together and talked about the upcoming Christmas dance this coming weekend. Since, I did not have a suit, I decided to wear dress slacks, a white shirt and tie. I had the dress slacks that fit me and several ties but had outgrown my white shirt. I went with my mother and bought one but had to take it to an alteration shop to make it fit properly. They promised to have it ready on Friday afternoon at three o’clock. My mother promised to pick it on her way from work.

I had been really working hard at the gym and staying till almost seven thirty then walking home. I would take a shower, eat some supper and go right to bed. That would eliminate time with my mother keeping things less complicated. She had not brought up anything of a sexual nature lately although we did not spend much idle time together. In a way, I think she knew just by the way she looked at me sometimes. She would have sad eyes sometimes and a look of sadness on her face.

On Wednesday, Haley asked me if I wanted to go to a movie and maybe grab a burger afterward. As she said, it would break the ice between us and let us spend a little time together before the dance. I agreed to pick her up at six thirty in the evening. The movie started at seven twenty at a local theatre only a few miles from the house. My mom let me use her car telling me to be careful.

I drove over to Haley’s house and her mother opened the door and let me in. I followed her into the den area where Haley’s father was watching television. He got up immediately and shook my hand.

“Hello Chris, nice to see you again.” he stated.

“Nice to see you too, sir.” I replied.

“Did you have any more trouble with Darren or his buddies?” he asked.

“No sir, not yet. But they hate me ... I can tell by the way they look at me every day.” I answered.

“Well after what you did to Darren if they had any sense, they would avoid you.” he laughed.

“I avoid them sir. I don’t want any trouble.” I replied.

“So where are you two off to?” he asked, sitting back down.

“We are going to the movies and then to the burger joint.” I answered.

Just about that time, Haley came in the room and across the floor. She was wearing sneakers, tight blue jeans, and a pull over long sleeve top. She had her hair pulled back in a ponytail which was a standard cheerleader hairstyle.

“Hey Chris, you ready to go?” she asked.

“Sure Haley.” I replied, softly.

“You kids be careful...” Haley’s mom stated.

“Uh mom, look who I’m with. I’m safe.” Haley giggled.

“Point taken...” she laughed.

We went out and got in the car and pulled away heading in the direction of the movie theatre. We pulled up about seven o’clock and got in line to purchase tickets. I bought the tickets, and we went to the concession stand and bought a large popcorn with two large cokes. We went into the room showing the film we had chosen, and Haley chose seats in the back righthand corner. They were only four people in the room as we walked up the steps to the righthand corner.

We sat down and talked quietly as the theatre started filling with people. The movie started on time with several minutes of credits playing. Just before the show was about to start, Jennifer Smith came in with her boyfriend, a football player. She saw us and waved then took a seat about ten rows in front of us.

As the lights dimmed down and the movie started, the room quieted down. Somewhere in the first ten minutes of the movie, Haley reached over the arm rest and took my hand in hers. Haley’s hand was small and very soft. Several times she moved her fingers in my hands slowly which I had to admit felt good. Perhaps ten minutes later, she leaned her head in my direction and rested it on my shoulder. Being very naïve with women, I did not expect Haley to show this kind of affection on a first date. The movie ended and everyone started filing out; we were almost the last to leave. When we got into the lobby Jennifer Smith and her boyfriend were waiting to see Haley.

“Hey girl, what’s up.” Jennifer said hugging Haley.

“Not much.” Haley giggled.

“Hey Chris, how are you?” Jennifer asked.

“I’m doing ok, Jennifer. Thank you.” I replied.

“Where are you guys going from here?” Jennifer asked.

“We are going over to Dan’s Diner to get a burger.” Haley replied.

“Oh, alright. We are headed to Bretchel Park.” Jennifer giggled.

“Have fun.” Haley laughed, grabbing my hand, and pulling me behind her.

We walked to the car and got in and buckled up. I pulled out of the parking lot and made my way over to Dan’s Diner which was a local hang out for young kids. We parked and went inside and grabbed a booth close to the front window. It took a while but eventually the waitress came over and took our orders. Just as she left the table, I notice Darren and several of the crew walk in. It took them less than ten seconds to notice us. I told Haley they had walked in, but she asked me to just ignore them. Sometimes, that is easier said than done. They walked right up to our table.

“Darren, this is the motherfucker who jumped you from behind?” one of the bigger guys said.

“Yea, that’s him.” Darren replied.

“Hey muscle boy, you want to try that with me?” he sneered.

I stood up and walked forward one step closing the gap between us. There were four of them and if this got physical, I was going to come out on the short end of this encounter.

“Darren pushed Haley down and split open her head. I simply pulled him off her.” I replied, softly.

“That’s not what I heard, boy.” he answered.

Haley jumped up and turned around getting in Darren’s face immediately. I could tell she had not forgotten what he had done to her.

“So now you must get three other guys to back you up? You’re only good one on one when you’re beating up girls, right?” she said, loudly.

By that time, the manager came around the counter and walked over to us. I could tell he had overheard most of what was said.

“Hey, you four, find a table on the other side of the diner. Darren, I know what you did ... word gets around fast in a small town. Now git.” he ordered.

They grumbled something about now being over but walked over to the other side of the diner. I sat back down just as the waitress brought our drinks. I could see Haley was very upset her hands were shaking.

“Haley, it’s alright. Don’t let them get to you.” I urged.

“That asshole split the back of my head open, and his buddies are going to blame you. I don’t think so.” she answered, very angry.

“Hey, in the end he was the one on his back on the concrete, not you.” I laughed.

“That’s true.” she giggled.

The waitress brought our food, and we began to eat. As we were eating the big guy who I had words with came walking down the aisle passing us and going to the bathroom. He stared me down as he passed then took a left and went into the restroom. As I looked behind the counter, I saw that the manager had noticed him walk in our direction. Several minutes later, he came out and began to walk in our direction again. When he passed me, he slapped me in the back of my head hard. I did not care if it was four to one, I was not going to play that shit. I jumped out took two steps and grabbed his arm spinning him around.