Chapter 219

June 10, 2018 (Sunday)

Dear Ms. Diary,

Padme hung with the non-young girls today as Cera and Maren were correct about Civ yesterday. She’s being pampered today at home. Fortunately, she is not feeling too poorly, and when we talked with her, she was being her typical witty self. I am really happy mine took place in the last few days of school. Lucky me, being done before we started in on intercourse. Rhee, too, since we have been nearly in lockstep for years, despite that she started before me and her first few periods were erratic. Liya began getting crampy while we were at Katherine’s this morning.

We arrived there a bit before 9:00. Wait, I should start this at the beginning.

Kaira showed up at the Sprinter naked, carrying the sheath we had bought her at the beginning of the Fahrad girls’ sojourn in the compound.

I told her, “You don’t have to be naked all the time, anymore.”

“I know. I choose to be naked all the time, now. Will ... Brett and Katherine be willing for me to be ... with them again?”

“You can ask Brett.”

She turned to find Brett right behind her, but he waited with raised eyebrows for her to ask.

After many seconds of waiting for him to say something, she finally asked, “May I be ... involved in your sex with Katherine?”

“I heard a bit of that yesterday. Why do you want that?”

“Because that was the best feeling I’ve ever had. I understand that you may not want me joining in on what Beth said is supposed to be your time with Katherine, so please tell me ‘no’ if you don’t want me involved.”

“Actually, your presence made last week ... more interesting. Are you willing to be ... submissive, I guess, like Beth had you being last week?”

“For those ... orgasms, I’ll be almost anything you two would want me to be.”

“Kai?”

“It’s fine, Padme. It was incredibly wonderful last week, and I want to see if it will ... work the same even if I don’t have to be there.”

“You ... really are ... liking ... all this, including the sex?”

“Yes. Even when I ... put myself under Beth’s orders, I truly got a kick out of being naked in front of ... everyone. I was scared, but also very excited. So, I want to see if it was ... being under Beth’s orders that made last Sunday so incredible. I hope that’s not the case, which is why I was ... brave enough to ask Beth and Brett about today. Do you think ... I’m ... being bad?”

Padme wrapped her arms around her sister and hugged herself to her, answering, “No! I want my sister to be happy overall, and I particularly don’t want her to be ... scared of ... s-sex. Maren and Civ say that all the parents ... theirs and the ... Go5’s ... really love sex, so if you’re ... enjoying it ... sex ... with so many of the ... girls and parents, then I’m happy for you.” Padme ducked her head onto Kaira’s right shoulder while she began saying, “I’ve b-been ... wondering if ... I c-could see what it’s like?”

Kaira gently encouraged Padme to lift her head, then looked into her eyes, and asked, “Are you truly interested for yourself, or might this interest be trying to fit in with Maren and Civ? Well, Maren, at least, as she’s obviously very interested.”

“Yes. I mean, ‘no,’ I’m not trying to fit in, and ‘yes,’ Maren is interested. But she wants to wait for Civ’s 14^th birthday, which is even later than mine.”

“But why 14?”

“That’s ... how old the Go5 were when they started.”

Kaira snuck a peek over her left shoulder at me, then responded, “Those girls really do ... run everything. Don’t they? Oh, it wasn’t apparent to me when we first arrived here, and it’s ... subtle, but they’re distinctly ‘first among equals.’ Do you agree?”

When Padme nodded, I rattled my brain and then opened my mouth to object, but I recalled Kaira’s sneak peek, so closed it and listened.

“That’s what Civ and Maren say and ... nothing I’ve seen argues against that. I ... I’ve seen them in the team for more than a year, and Beth is certainly the leader there. Rhee is happy to go along, as she prefers not leading, although I think that’s mostly because Beth almost always considers ... everyone when she makes a decision. Now that I’ve seen Liya more this year, she’s the ... perhaps, second ... or even first-and-a-half among equals. Heather’s more like Rhee, but ... a bit toward Beth, while Gracey’s ... She’s sort of like Rhee in going along, but she’s ... more ... I don’t know, but I do know she doesn’t at all blindly follow.

“I think the thing about the Go5 is that they know each other, really know each other ... and all of them take ... that knowledge into account at nearly all times. Somewhere around mid-season last year, I figured that out, and I wanted to have ... friends like that. I had fun last year with the younger girls on the team, but I’ve wanted to be... here ... with these girls, and that was when it was just five girls, then six when Civ obviously became tight with them. Seeing that almost got me asking them to join them near the end of the season, but I ... chickened out.” She glanced at me, then grinned at Kaira and said, “And look where I am, Kai,” she exclaimed. She quickly sobered, then added, “I really hate ... hate so much how I wound up here, but I love it here so much ... so ... very ... m-mu...”

She dropped her head back on Kaira’s shoulder and began sobbing, seemingly in both sorrow and joy. I stepped around them and made a Padme sandwich with Kaira. She did not cry for long, but once she stopped, she wriggled out of our four arms, held her right hand up in the ‘stop’ signal, then dashed back in the house.

Celeste sidled over and whispered, “I don’t know how you and Padme have done as well as you have here. You both seem to have really loved your mother. You probably were more positive about her than I’ve been about mine for many years, but I still cannot imagine doing anything like as well as you two are doing were it my mother who had been killed. Particularly with the specter of your father finding you hanging over you. I find you two amazing. Oh, I know that you’ve spent most of your time here, Kaira, playing a character, but you haven’t been since you quit your job. I’m ... liking the personality that seems to be emerging from behind your walls.”

“Thanks, Celeste. I guess I’ve always been ... more than a little ... scared. Padme was really young when we fled India and the ... lack of understanding of what we were doing probably made it easier for her. I was ... already a disillusioned adult at her age, and Mother and I worked together to get us here. I’ve cried many times at night thinking about us here and how I feel ... despite the ... dull fear that our Father will find us ... I feel like a lot of the ... oppression of our situation has lifted from me. I suspect that that played some part in how I responded to the chance to ... be someone else. That’s probably part of why I was so willing to let Beth control my life. No! I wanted her to control my life because I was so lost. My ... co-parent of Padme was no longer there to be the ... another parent, and I’m not as strong as our mother, not as ... maybe devious as our mother. I knew I couldn’t hide Padme, not successfully, so dove into being Veda. I’m still scared that our father will find us, but I’m less scared than I’ve been in ... a very long time.”

Padme’s arms suddenly wrapped Kaira up from behind her as Padme said, “Oh, Kai. I’m sorry for ... eavesdropping and I’m sorry you ... didn’t have much of a childhood. If you don’t want to be my second mom, I’m happy for us to be sisters!”

With something of a faint smile, Kaira rotated in Padme’s arms and hugged her minimally clothed younger sister to her naked body as she said, “I’d like us to be sisters. I think I probably can’t completely give up being something of a parent to you, and I have a piece of paper that says I’m your parent, but I would like our relationship to be based more on our sisterhood. Someday, I’d like us to snuggle together into bed and talk about boys ... and ... sex ... and other stuff sisters talk about in bed while staying awake far too deeply into the night. I want that, Padme, mostly because I’ve never had anything like that.”

Padme responded by squeezing her sister even more tightly, then leaning back to look slightly up into her eyes, and say, “We’ll do that, Kai.”

With Padme waiting in Katherine’s gazebo, the rest of us – other than Katherine, Brett, and Kaira – closed the front door behind us as we headed to that gazebo, Liya quietly said, “I think I’ve caught Civ’s disease.”

Heather responded, “At least you and Gracey aren’t scheduled for a while, so you’re not going to have to postpone your first-intercourse-with-Brett night like Cera and Brit did.”

Gracey answered, “That’s one thing that would have been a positive for the Pill over the IUD. We’d all know precisely when our periods would start. I still like the order-of-magnitude better failure rate ... or, to put it positively ... non-failure rate over the Pill.”

We were chuckling as we stepped into the gazebo to Padme’s question, “How is she?”

“Having much more fun than I am,” answered Liya.

Padme frowned, then stated, “You could have told her you didn’t want her involved in the sex today!”

Liya shook her head, saying, “No, Padme. That’s fine. I’m ... feeling like Civ did yesterday.”

“Oh. Umm. I’m ... sorry?”

Liya snickered, responding, “Yes, it’s a bit tricky dealing with others’ periods.” She cocked her head and frowned, then asked, “Have you had your first?”

Padme frowned again, then her eyes went a bit wide, and she answered, “Yes. In January, and I’m still not quite ... umm ... regular, I guess.” She rattled her brain, then slowly got out, “You girls really ... do ... talk about ... everything together. Don’t you?”

Andy answered, “Yes, and the Go5 had to explain that to us ... ancient girls. I’m still not quite used to the amount of ... openness that’s required by our ... lifestyle choice, but I’m getting there. Or, at least, it’s getting easier to have casual discussions about periods, who’s having them when, as that’s something we need to know relative to ... a lot of things we do.” She turned to me and asked, “Is it okay to talk about romps with the younger girls?”

“Yes, but only in generalities ... very ... general generalities.”

“Padme, we have occasional ... times of a ... big pile of girls in a bed. While some of them are spontaneous, mostly we try to loosely schedule them for times in which few of us are on periods. Everyone still takes part when one comes about, but some ... activities get ... curtailed a bit for girls amid their periods.”

“Oh. That makes ... sense.” Padme rattled her brain again, then asked, “How do you all manage this? It seems like ... a lot of work.”

Liya replied, “It’s not all that much work, but the main thing is that there are things in life worth the effort, and this, what we have as a group, is more worth that effort than anything else in my life has ever been.”

While it may seem from the above that our entire morning was spent discussing menstruation, it was not. We talked about many other things in the gazebo, all of us in our birthday suits, including the group nudity that we all loved.

“I love it, too,” exclaimed Padme. “I had no idea that the Go5 friendship involved being naked together so much, but this just seems ... I don’t know ... right, I think.” Her face went soft in sadness as she added, “My ... mom wouldn’t let me be naked in the house in India, but I never understood then why. So, I completely understand what it means: freedom. Freedom from a lot of bad things, including...”

She shook her head rapidly, obviously telling us that she wouldn’t take us back to talk of her father.

Rhee interjected, “Yes. Freedom is a large part of why we live like this. We can. We enjoy it. So, we do. Some of the LA had to learn to like it, but, if anything, they’re possibly more gung-ho about it than many of us, with Heather probably the best example. As she’ll tell you, in her mother’s house, she was naked only in the bathroom, and only for showering. Now, Heather would greatly prefer always being nude.”

“Oh, yeah,” confirmed Heather.

“Well, I’m already sold,” responded Padme. “Other than the ... constant camaraderie, this is the best part of being ... with the LA.”

Kim exclaimed, “I’m with you on both counts, Padme, the camaraderie and the nudity. I’d probably want to be ... in the compound with those two facets even if the sex weren’t so wonderful ... or even if it wasn’t a thing with us. I’ve found that ... you can’t hide if everyone’s always naked, and I’m not talking about physically hiding. At least for us, the nudity seems to have encouraged the openness, although I think it’s now a reinforcing loop. We’re nude, so we’re open and we’re open, so we’re nude. I will say that it doesn’t hurt that everyone’s so attractive.”

Brit stepped in with, “And they were all accepting of me even when my body looked nothing much like any of theirs. They were open with me even when I was overweight. Of course, looking at all of those trim, soccer bodies provided plenty of ... encouragement, I’ll say ... to trim down, and, for me, that was another reinforcing feedback loop. I got happier with myself as I began shedding the pounds, and it was easier not to overeat because I was so much happier with myself. I’ve said it before, Padme, but wherever these girls go in the future, I will follow. Not only am I happier than I’ve ever been, I’m happier than I formerly could imagine anyone being. While I know that we’ve got it easy, now, being in high school and having a house of our own to live in ... all together, I know it won’t always be this easy. While I didn’t quite have the fear of Heather’s childhood, or certainly of Kaira’s, there were lots of bad times, somewhat fearful times. So, even if there are times in our future that are only ... a quarter as good as we have it, now, it’ll still be better ... much better ... than much of my time before joining the LA.”

That discussion went on for a few more minutes until Kaira arrived and asked, “Beth ... LA members, is it permissible for the three of us to shower ... together ... before we leave?”

That threw us for a loop.

“Katherine and I understand if it’s not, so don’t worry about hurting ... her feelings. You can’t hurt mine, as I’m brand new to all of this and don’t have much invested.”