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I really do hate AI. It's not here to make our lives easier. It's causing our very destruction as we watch (creating a deeper and deeper rift between countries and peoples, putting some deeper into poverty and others richer beyond measure). But, there's literally nothing any singular one of us can do anything about it (I hope that we have a Dune style rebellion and add as a testament from the divine "Thou shalt not make a machine in the likeness of a human mind") so, here I am with that infamous "almost, not quite, sorta, close enough" that AI is so good at. The pictures added in this chapter are in the likeness of Roan and Cylthan, but not exact. You folks still have plenty of space for your own mental images. No matter what I tried, the AI would not make the ears go UP! Why are elves drawn with ears that stick straight out? I've never liked that style, but it's everywhere, and it's what the AI is trained on. So, her ears are a lot longer than shown and go straight up like human ears. As for Roan's picture, well, I'm just glad the scar is on the correct side. It doesn't look the same, and his silver eye is supposed to be SILVER, like there's mercury that swirls around, and a white pinpoint that isn't always so visible, but it's definitely his pupil in the artifact. Oh well, "close enough." Should it ever, by some luck, become a movie, it would be animated in this style. I added the images in this chapter so that current readers don't have to go back, and so I didn't have to repost the first chapter again. Enjoy!
Now, as for the Draago... In the previous draft over on Woofajuana, I had the "Drago" (yeah, I just added an extra 'a' so it's pronounced correctly) listed as a "dragon-kin" who were born of dragons breeding with elves. And before that, it wasn't a species, it was just Shidu. Well, I've had a few years between versions, and the Draago are definitely dragons. They are just dragons who evolved to look like people for the sole purpose of eating more people. If they look like an elf, the elves trust them more and then they become dinner. I saw something similar in Frieren (an anime about a 1,000 year old elf living among humans and fighting demons, check it out!) where the demons only learned to speak to trick humans into trusting them. It's fun how we all seem to pull from a similar creative Source. But, in this version, the Draago are full-blooded dragons that just look like people. Some like elves, some like humans, but they all have lots of dragon qualities. I have a full species sheet for them that I'm working on, and I will post for you guys next time. I don't feel like describing everything about them in story because there is a lot that is actually kind of important to know. In this chapter is a copper Draago, which look like giant humans (with wings, tails, scales, horns...), and have spent so long pretending to be humans that they've basically become humans and rarely eat people anymore. Since we'll be getting to know a few more later, I'll make sure to have that species sheet. Mostly, I just don't want to spend a paragraph to describe how they look while I'm in the middle of the story. Totally knocks me out of the moment and it's a jolt I don't like so I just make a separate sheet for it.
With summer break, out of town trips, more funerals, and my health, finding time to write has been difficult. I'm so sorry about Dragon Tamers. Trust me, I want to finish what I picked apart, but Roscrow has been so pissed about Higzashi trying to come into my head that I can't get him to talk straight. He hates Higzashi. Soooo much. Listen, saipaki, the dude can't hear you. I'm hearing you and it's annoying me! What does he hate so much? Well, because Higzashi is not a good guy. He never was, but I made him way too sweet in the original rough draft. It actually upset people when Shime left him, which was not supposed to happen. Readers were supposed to be happy about it. Higzashi's only desire is to breed an army to take over the Ha'trin, and he does that by doing to other young women as what he does with Shime: pretend to love her. He's the soft kind of abusive, not the hard kind that she came from, which is why she falls for him at all. And Roscrow can't stand that. Tarnrax is a bad guy with his hard abuse. There's nothing redeeming about him. But Higzashi? He's cunning and ancient, and he uses that to manipulate and twist up his prey while being the leader of a group that generally stands against exactly what he's doing. That's what pisses Roscrow off. When a bad man acts good and gets away with it. A predator who so perfectly hides among its own prey. And, oh boy! Roscrow's got lots of elvish insults I've never heard before.
So, while I rage against the machine, he's raging against... other fictional characters. Yeah, that's right, my fictional characters are pissed off at fictional characters and only the one of them even knows any of the rest of them exist. I'm clearly crazy. That's okay, at least I have fun. I can't remember what being bored is like. It's been decades. But, I absolutely know how frustrating it can be. I am reading a Korean manga and they took a hiatus, and I was devastated. My Friday was ruined. What do I even do with myself without anime smut of an estranged couple fucking younger people? T.T And all I could think was "this is how my readers must feel." So trust when I say, I'm not happy to leave it there. Not about Roscrow, and not about Kupper. Both of you big, bad, black-eyed jerks! Get back to work! Ugh! It'll happen. If nothing else, it'll happen in August. Schooooooooooool. The bane of children, the savior of parents.
Anyhow, here is the next chapter of "The Rat and the Dragon." I slid into home base at the last second with this chapter. Finished today, so it may not be properly edited. Rough draft things! Kind of like how Cylthan is supposed to use magic with intention instead of spoken spells, which I will fix later. Just know that that particular conversation about her magic is coming up in a few chapters, so it will clash with the start.
So many rats. The rats must've brought the plague with them. *lies in bed dying* Ugh. Speaking of rats, I wanted to educate you readers on a rat behavior that isn't too commonly known outside of those who like rats. "Bruxing" is a behavior where they grind their teeth rapidly, making a sound and grinding down their incisors. The action also causes their eyes to bulge in and out of the sockets rapidly as their jaw muscles are under their eyes. It is a behavior similar to a cat's purr- a sound of joy under normal circumstances, unless the rat is in distress, then they will do it to soothe themselves. It happens often enough going forward that I thought those of you who read my blogs would like to know. If it is interesting to you, look it up on youtube. Rats are adorable. Even the wild ones. Doesn't mean I'd like one in my house, but like wild snakes, they are very cute at a safe distance. When I say I'm an animal lover, I don't just mean a few select, I mean down to the creepiest and crawliest. I will even go out of my way to avoid stepping on a cockroach if it's not in my house. Roan may have gotten that animal lover thing from me. He does have a thing for dragons, which are technically animals... *whispers* Nobody tell that to Shidu.... cuz that bitch breathes fire... and she eats people. Literally.
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Still staring at his chest, she let out a little sigh. “Maybe… just for a minute.”
Settling back down with her, he continued to caress her shoulder. “I’ll lay here as long as you want.”
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Is this a sweet moment between Roan and Cylthan? Or a quiet before his rage? This chapter might have gone a different way but since a reader had expressed an interest in it, I let the explanation of Ssolaar's death be a readers lesson in some of the magic classes in this world. Battle mages are quite common among the Seekers. Most magic users are paired with a physical fighter of some type that works well with their magic and fighting style, but they don't always have to get along. We also learn quite a bit about Roan and Silver Eye and the depth of their connection. And I wonder who was in that cloak?
As for me, on a personal note- guys, I am burnt the fuck out. I'm not blocked, I'm not sick of writing, I'm just burnt out. I struggled to get this chapter done over the whole two weeks. Not because it was hard or that it is long (even longer than the last one by a few words, and we haven't even left Roan's room yet for the first day), but just sitting and writing what I'm working on. I'm sick of these werewolves. I'm sick of these elves. So many other stories are screaming in my head and I'm exhausted with pushing them away. My kids are home for summer break, and my guts are rebelling harder than the French when you mess with their retirement. I know discipline writes novels, but burn out is a bitch. I'll probably keep writing to Rat and Dragon whenever it's there, but I think I'll see where these random thoughts will take me for a little while... you know, when I have a moment.
As for Dragon Tamer, I was unhappy with how dry some of the responses sounded and started messing with it and now I might have fucked with it a little too much.... I'll work on finishing that before I just leave the story to sit for a bit. Maybe if I get some of these other story ideas out, it will clear up the signal and invigorate me back into these tales. I can't get Kupper back for nothing and I'm sick of trying when all I get is Satrina and Dane (from "A Journey Across the Surface" over on my other pen name) responding. I'm sick of editing werewolves when the sequel is howling in my ear. Shime may have another chapter or two in her before she goes quiet again.
So, I'll drop Chapter 18 this Saturday. I hope you enjoy! Feel free to make comments. You never know what may influence the next chapter! Just... nobody make Shidu mad... Roan, you might an idiot....
Tomorrow in "The Rat and the Dragon," if you were thinking Roan was going to get Cylthan back... you would be correct.
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“What do you want?” she growled without looking at him, hoping he wouldn’t hear how choked up she was. “Got a dungeon fetish?”
“No, actually. I’d be much more turned on if you were purring in my warm bed.”
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There's a lot of hot and cold between them. Roan's got his own demons behind those eyes that she'll learn about later. The reason most of this chapter is her point of view is because next chapter, he will talk about what he was thinking which leads into her learning about him. Almost everyone has a sad story that led them to be Seekers.
This is by far the biggest chapter of the story so far. Whether it's the biggest for the whole story, I'm not sure yet, but it's over 4k words. I don't think you'll be too upset.
You know who was upset, though? An old friend who recently reached out because she heard I was writing this particular story again. She was loving it... until chapter 11. In the previous, Cylthan was flirty and that's what started all that. Well, as the author, I know he would have tackled her and taken what he wanted back then, too. She's just more true to form now since she's a virgin who never even considered sex or rape until Roan was sitting on top of her and told her he would get hard if she kept struggling. It never even occurred to her until that moment. Thanks to Roan, it'll be a lot of what she thinks about from now on, though. There goes that purity... Hmmm, I wonder if that might cause problems later? Enjoy!
I finished the next chapter of "The Dragon Tamers," and it turned out to be nearly 4k words. While that's a totally acceptable chapter length, I'm already on to editing my werewolves. I don't know about you readers, but I'd rather have enough material to keep going and not have you guys waiting for a month when I miss a release, soooo... I'm splitting the chapter. When editing for publishing, I will put the two back together, but for consistent posting reasons, I give you guys the build up to the big info bit. And, just Jasper being Jasper. Poor guy is only a human among elves, and he's going to keep being reminded again and again, they are not the same species. Can he keep his insecurities at bay as that fact becomes more obvious with each passing day?
I'm totally down for a chapter name on this one. "On the Way" is so boring but it was all I could come up with. There will be two parts to it. I hope you all enjoy part one!
Hello, and welcome to all the new readers! I'm so glad you are all joining me on this grand adventure through the worlds that clutter up my mind. Don't entirely know where we're going, but we'll all have fun getting there together!
One of the questions I've been asked a few times- and it came up again recently- is how long I think it will be to finish my two current stories. Uh, well, there's no nice well to put this. When I wrote "In the Enemy's Territory" (available on Woofajuana), that's an approximately 150k word novel and I put my everything into that story. Morning, noon and night, any chance I had, that was what I was writing. There were a couple of side projects that never finished, but nothing that took up more than a day or two of my writing time. I was fully and solely focused on that novel and from when I sat down and started the concept on my brand new tablet to when I posted the last chapter here on SOL was about 3 years--though when I started actually posting what I had written, that really made me buckle down and I finished more in that last year than the first 2 of keeping it to myself. I'm still not fully "done." I'm going to finish this next chapter of "The Dragon Tamers" and then I'm gonna use that time to catch up on editing the werewolves and hope they don't scare off my other elves again. It didn't work before, but I have enough written down this time that I should be able to fill in the gaps with Roan and Cylthan should the dog breath prove too stifling. (Meanwhile, Roscrow in the middle of it "Why are the barking rugs humping on the furniture again? And why does this white one with purple hair keep attaching to me?" Ha, yeah, I don't remember what being bored is like. I just release Vohlana among the elves and watch the chaos ensue.)
So, here I be, writing approximately a chapter a week between two stories. I don't know exactly how long either one is going to be, but I'll bet, knowing me, they'll both end up around 150k words, too. So strap in folks, it'll be a few years. T.T
I'm sorry for that. I'm a very slow writer. I've got kids, pets, partner, health issues, and a big in-law family. Some writers sit down and just make 2,000 words appear in a flash. I envy those writers SO much. I have so many stories in my head. I want to get them all out now. But, if I get 200 words out in a day, I'm so proud of myself. I try to write every day, even if it's not directly to my stories. On occasion, those little tidbits make it into my stories and save me a lot of time describing a scenery or something. But, alas, I am slow. I spend so much time thinking about the scene playing in my head and how to describe it that by the time I think "Oh, I should be writing this down!" it fades from my mind like a desert cloud and I am left so frustrated. My thoughts are too fast for my fingers and I lose the words. And just to compound the problem... I edit. I write a sentence and then spend so much time editing the sentence, I could have written a paragraph if I just wouldn't.
I've been learning a lot of new techniques to help, and that was a big reason I started with a story that was kind of an outlier of my other tales. I figured the furries would appreciate ITET and maybe a few others, but for the most part, it was merely experimentation to put the new techniques to practice (and to my surprise, it has exploded with the general audience on other sites). With DT and R&D, I now have the techniques that worked in place as best as I can. I have outlines and summaries and I've planned most things out ahead of time rather than waiting for inspiration along the way. There's still plenty of space for discovery (like this chapter of DT), but that gives me a dirt road to pave over and that saves a lot of time. I don't have much buffer. I tend to get lazy with too much of a buffer. Knowing that people are waiting helps keep me motivated. But, it is a slow process. I'm grateful for those with the patience to stick with me through it. I haven't unlocked warp drive, yet, but at least I've made it past invention of the wheel so things should move along a little more quickly than they used to.
I hope you all enjoy this journey with me! You'll be stuck with me awhile....
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